Outsider in my own town...

Everytime I go into town I feel that I don't belong there, and that everyone knows. I feel that everyone is staring at me and whispering behind my back when I walk past them.
I've had this feeling for as long as I can rembember, and it' s a feeling that just won't go away. I've tried everything, dressing differently, walking differently, even talking differently with no luck shaking that feeling of.

I feel like an outsider in my own town.

This feeling has followed me around Norway aswell, when I went to visit my best friend in Tønsberg, when I went to Hamar to celebrate my uncles birhtday, when I go to Asker where I grew up. It seems like there no place in Norway that I really can relax and lower my shoulders.

But last summer in July I think I found the one place that I feel most at home, just the place I wish I was living. I went to this place with three of my girlfriends and I just fell in LOVE with the place. This town had everything I could think of, a nice quite park, many stores, many places to sit down and enjoy a nice cup of coffee, and it wasn't to expencive there either.
Even though te town is overcrowded I felt alone enoght to wander the streets in my own mind and thoughts. I really could picture myself living there had my living situation been different, had I been singel and not have a kid on the way, I would defenetly consider moving there for a little while to see if it's for me.

I guess you wonder whar place I'm talking about.

🇬🇧LONDON